Take Off

When I accepted the position in New York City, the three-week notice seemed such a long time to move. Now, sitting on the plane, I am wishing I had more time here. But it is time to embark on my new adventure.

Leaving Columbus has not been an easy decision. Although I am SO excited to move to New York, home is ALWAYS where the heart is. Columbus has given me absolutely everything I have and shaped me into the person I am. But I am ready to take off and show New York City what a Columbus girl is made of!

As usual, I had to keep myself EXTREMELY busy during the weeks leading up to the move. It took me 3.5 days to pack, well pack then unpack then pack again. It was a struggle! But miraculously I fit a part (not even half) of my wardrobe in two suitcases, yes two. I then somehow convinced my parents to ship me a huge box of other necessities that just couldn’t seem to fit (bless their hearts). Between the packing, I managed to make a trip to Pennsylvania to visit my grandma, have a going away party AND make a two-day trip to Indiana to watch the Big Ten Wrestling Tournament, phew! I am sure you are reading this and thinking I am absolutely insane. Maybe I am, but my last week in (and out) of Columbus was one of the best.

As I am soaring above the clouds, I am mixed with so many emotions. It is no surprise that I have been teary eyed since the moment my parents backed the car out of the driveway. This is my first big move away from my family, friends and everything I am familiar with – it is intimidating if I am being honest with myself. But I am never one to back down from a challenge though, and this one I think will be the best yet.

I look forward to the challenges ahead; adapting to a new and bigger (much bigger) city, a job in my career field, unfamiliar surroundings and none of my family close by. Luckily for me, I am blessed with the best family and friends who I know are just a phone call/FaceTime away. I am eager to show them my new world and make them proud as I pursue my dreams.

It took me much longer to get to this moment than I ever anticipated. To be honest, I was getting to a point of complete defeat. Looking for a job in the city that I love has not been easy, in fact, it has been more difficult than college ever was. When I was in college, I imagined my post-grad life to be much different and much more successful; no one told me it was going to be this difficult.

I think we all have a “wake up call” and decide to give ourselves one year to change, or maybe I just do this for myself to make change in my life. I think it takes a moment to cause us to reevaluate our personal direction. But maybe you’re reading this and wondering what the hell I am talking about or maybe you completely understand what I am saying. For me, I experienced “that moment” that completely caught me off guard and I decided right then that things needed to change.

I would be completely lying if I told you that in the last year I made all the changes I wanted to make. I would be lying if I told you that I accomplished everything I wanted to do. The last year has been emotionally, mentally and physically challenging. It had its ups and it had its downs, but I persisted forward which has brought me to this very moment.

If you asked me a year ago if I saw myself moving to New York City, my answer would probably have been “no”. At that time my goals were fuzzy and I lacked the focus that had carried me through my young adult life. I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do, I had moved back home (not a bad thing, but it wasn’t in my first plan), I was suffering from a broken heart and I was just completely unsure about this whole “adulthood” thing. It wasn’t all “rainbows and butterflies” like I convinced myself it would be. I never thought it would be easy though and I definitely never expected to be handed anything, but I never imagined it being so challenging in so many ways.

As I sit here with all the airport chaos around me, I can’t help but smile. I smile as I think back to where I was and how much doubt filled my soul. I smile now, because I understand that God had a magnificent plan for me the entire time.

This past year, I wanted to grow closer to God and I did just that. One of the hardest things to leave behind was my Sunday ritual with my closest friends, Rock City Church + brunch. It was a Sunday tradition that grew close to my heart and I am going to miss it very much but look forward to finding my new Sunday ritual in the city.

Through all of my self-doubt and frustration, God seemed to have His plan for me and I just did not realize (I was being impatient, go figure). One Sunday, I walked into church, after missing the earlier Sunday, and we were in our second week of a new series, From Here to There. The title of Week 2 was “My Work Life” and I immediately felt a dark cloud hover over me. The one topic I hated discussing with people or even thinking about and I was going to listen to a message about it a place that I come to find peace. Much to my surprise, I was wrong about the message that week.

By the end, I was in tears. I was filled with a new sense of hope for my future. That week, I was offered an interview for FleishmanHillard and the rest is history.

The impact that Rock City Church has had on my life has been tremendous. It has brought me closer to myself, but more importantly, closer to God.

The series of events that have occurred the last year have all happened for a reason. I did not realize how the fortunes and misfortunes would play a part in my story, but now I understand. There is no time for dwelling, no time for questioning and no time for holding back.

 

 

Being back in the air is peaceful, and as the plane descends, the city is in clear view and my spirits truly begin to soar. My future is staring me in the eyes and I am ready to embark on the journey of a lifetime. In the wise words of Carrie Bradshaw,

As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, shoulda, woulda, buckle up and just keep going. 

 

Hello New York City! I’m home!

Xx Bee

 

 

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