It’s 11:30PM on a Friday night and I’m sitting alone in my house listening to the annoying sound your smoke detector makes when the batteries are low and many house parties happening on East Frambes. Not the most pleasant noise, but I still found myself in a mood to write and time to actually do so!
My life has been pretty busy, but then again when is it not? I enjoy the chaos…until exhaustion and reality kick in. I often wonder what happened to my insomnia that I had throughout high school and freshman year because on some nights I could really use the energy to stay awake and get some things done! Oh well, I’m pretty sure a balanced lifestyle is better for me anyways.
I really enjoy Friday’s like these. Relaxing in my bed after a long day of class and work, reading the 4th Harry Potter (I’m determined to finish the series soon), a Wild Red, and the desire to write. Ahh relaxation. It’s been a crazy couple of weeks. I really love and enjoy my new job. I have been really successful and I intend to continue my success. School is going great as well! I cannot believe that the school year is almost half way over, time does fly. The official start of wrestling season is just around the corner and I could not be more excited! Writing the newsletter has kept me extremely busy and occupied but I have been proud of the final product as well as the kind comments and thanks from those who take the time to read it! Thanks to my connection with wrestling I was offered a possible internship this summer in California, but I have made no final decisions just yet! My friends are great, my roommates are even better, and my family is terrific as always. Life is not good but it is LIFE IS GREAT.
Despite all the great things that are going well in my life there is something that has really changed. Last Sunday I decided to start going to church. Some of you reading may not see this as a big deal, but it really is and especially for me. I grew up in a Catholic family and went to Catholic schools my ENTIRE life. I mean really, my first day of school that I did not wear a uniform was my first day of college…talk about stressful, jeez. Anyways, despite my attendance to Catholic schools I never made the strongest connection with God. Do not get me wrong, I always believed but I was never connected with Him like others. I think it was something that I always wanted, but never knew how to achieve, until now. Something inside me sparked and I felt an overwhelming desire to make more of a connection. I did not want to go through the motions. I did not just want to turn to God in times of need. I wanted a strong relationship through the good AND the bad. I have always believed and I have always found great inspiration through His teachings, but now it’s something more to me than just a verse or a quote. It’s something I want to integrate more into my daily life.
As I reflect on the past and think about some potential reasons as to why I never could achieve the strong connection that I desired, it’s hard to come to a concise conclusion. I think life is all about timing. The last few months my life has had some significant changes. Over the years I have had really good times and really bad times. Lately I have been the happiest version of myself and it’s been a very long time since I have felt this way. Sometimes I have a hard time remembering the last time I was this happy. I let go of things hanging on, I filled my heart with inspiration and motivation, and most importantly I started to really focus on the things that made me happy. I wanted to fill my life with things and people who brought the best out of me and because of that I think I’m the best possible version of myself and there’s more yet to come! This is where my relationship with God comes into play. The ‘things and people’ I wanted to fill my life with may not always be there, but God will.
My grandma has always told me since I can remember about the importance of going to church and thanking God for the blessings He has put in my life. She has taught me to trust in His timing and to never doubt. She always tells me “if God can give you a week then you can give Him an hour”. It’s so true. I am blessed with so many great things in my life and it keeps getting better and better. I can thank my parents, my family, my friends, and my enemies for the opportunities and the lessons they’ve taught me, but who is it that I really need to make sure I thank? God. He’s the reason they are in my life therefore He deserves the biggest thank you I have to offer. So that is exactly what I want to do.
I am proud of myself that I have finally come to this point in my life. I am happy it came in a moment of triumph and happiness. I could think of no better time for myself to come to a realization and understanding. I intend to continue my journey through life not only with trust in myself, my family, and friends but God as well. So let the new journey begin!
And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.